royal flush

alright... i have to blog about it. the ROYAL WEDDING! who's excited? THIS GIRL! honestly, what girl wouldn't be? i cannot wait to see kate's dress - it's going to be amazing... who am i kidding, the whole thing is going to be amazing. i will be up at 2 a.m. utah time sitting my butt right in front of my television and watching! i kinda wanna dress up.... is that weird? too bad i don't have chic clothes like kate. i totally would be all over that. i kinda wish that more of my friends or family was as excited about it as i am. because i would make it a partayyyy! i also wish i was friends with tori spelling and that i could attend her royal wedding party... how freaking fun would that be? have all the chic cute hats she has... i would look lame, but she totally rocks them! ah i really am just so excited over all for this whole shin dig. seeing her different outfits/wedding dress, the decorations, the guests, the after party, the actual ceremony, all of it. one day.... one day. :)

hoppy easter.

i had such a great easter. i spent some time with my family before i headed down to orem to have easter with ron's brother steve and his wife vanessa. vanessa made such a great easter dinner -- and afterwards we had an easter egg hunt -- boys vs. girls. the boys hid the eggs super good. i was very impressed! they were so creative in the places they hid the eggs -- also given the fact that the space we had to utilize was small. vanessa and i also did very well in hiding the eggs, i was totally proud of our good works. it ended up being really fun for all of us to do the egg hunt. the boys demolished the house looking for the eggs, they didn't hesitate AT ALL. haha. here are a few pictures from easter. hope you all had a great easter as well! :)

paleo way of life

so i'm trying this new 'way' of life. i'm sure many of you have heard of it -- the paleo way of life. paleo meaning paleolithic era -- aka cavemen. basically i'm taking out grains (wheat, barley, rye, oats, etc.), dairy (cheese, milk, yogurt, etc.) and legumes ( beans and such). it's designed around what was first brought about to eat in the paleolithic era. in all honesty... it's going to be HARD. but i am totally up for the challenge. on saturday i made a few meals to test out... i had to make my OWN tortillas... and how you might ask did i do that? well i purchase almond flour and coconut flour. it's a totally different type of consistency -- so light, no density at all. but it actually turned out. i also made my own pizza crust. i was really proud of myself... becoming domestic and all. haha but not eating bread that is so readily avaliable to you... or eating a slice of cheese.... ugh. HARD HARD HARD. i'm a fairly healthy eater; however, after starting to read, "The Paleo Diet" i started to realize how bad certain thing i had been eating are terrible for you. i'm excited to really start to read in depth and cook more and more recipes from my new cookbook! i honestly am so excited because 1. it's something new. 2. i love cooking. 3. it's healthy! oh yeah. i've got this. you may be seeing me posting random recipies on my blog and such so be prepared. :)

head over heels

i honestly have thee biggest obession with shoes. it's almost like an illness. i justify why i should buy shoes at ANY given moment. and for the dumbest reasons. they aren't even legit. but these are the reasons why i justify buying them... tell me you wouldn't do the same -
25% of your purchase TODAY! .... uh hello why wouldn't you buy them!
buy $50 worth of shoes/accessories and get FREE shipping! .... okay you talked me into it!
shoes will ALWAYS fit you.
they make any outfit.
there are so many different kinds.
and... they give me some killer height.


bam. good enough reasons for me. my problem is... i buy so many of the same kind. i have these light rose pink pumps... that i love! but then i just found some "blush" colored pumps. they technically are a different color... and they're so cute................. but................. they're kinda the same? what's a girl to do?

awe..... so pretty. christian louboutin pumps.
purely beautiful. :)

lime in the coconut

 i recently have found myself a new friend. organic virgin coconut oil. holy heck. this stuff is so good! i literally have been making errrrrything with it. shrimp, chicken, curry, drinks, and steaks. it's amazing. i think everybody should try it. you won't regret it. plus - it's unbelievably good for you. who knew. TRY IT!

empowered

man.. this week has been crazy. so excited it was my last week of classes till next fall, and one more week with finals... ONE final! woooo! but i have been to the gym 5 days this week.. completely changed my eating habits... and i feel amazing. i honestly hate having to go to the gym, but when i'm there i absolutley love it. i feel so empowered after, and it helps me eat healthier to know that i just worked my freaking butt off. i love that i feel i have more energy and the fact that my 'diet' consists of CLEAN foods that keep me fuller longer and i still can eat every 2-3 hours. it hasn't been too hard so far, but i know there will be days  i'll struggle but i know i can do it because i REALLY i really want it. there will be days that i won't want to do it... but that's just one day farther away from my goal if don't do it. i love that i don't just want to sit in from of my t.v., instead i'm doing something. it's so exciting knowing that i am changing for the better and accomplishing the goal i have always wanted. just always remember.... don't change for anyone but YOURSELF. - and you can accomplish anything. :)

for reals

last night it took me almost a solid 2 hours to get home from provo - normally takes one. however, the moment i got to lagoon it was a white out. 15 mph the way home. i couldn't see a thing and it was so hard to drive, not to metion i am terrified to drive in the snow after my accident in january. i want to move. it's spring, spring for heck sakes! and there is a solid 6 inches of snow outside my door.

determination?

it's def a friday night and i am home. i'm lame. but i have so much to do with school that i honestly have no choice. it's okay though. sometimes it's nice, anyway. :) write a paper, watch eat.pray.love. with my mom. i am content. but..... my mind is going four thousand miles an hour.

i have so much i want for myself, but it seems so far out of reach. i want to just FOCUS. i need to tell myself that no matter what i can achieve anything, all it takes is hard work and determination, right? anything we do that is worth it seems to take a lot of hard work - like getting a degree, you have to study your brains out or by wanting to buy something you really want, you have to work and save or achieving that fab bod you must watch what you eat and exercise. but in the end... it is worth it.

well these are my goals i am going to achieve in the next three months:

1. become fit.

               i'm going to play the blame game and blame it all on school for the reason as to why i don't go to the gym daily. for reals though, i never have time. now that school is on the verge of being over i have NO excuse as to why i can't go to the gym at least 4 times a week. i'm going to prove it to myself that i can do it and it will do it. i'm so done being a lazy bum. it's a joke. i know i'm going to hate it somedays but i have to reassure myself that it is all going to be worth it. i'm going to do my best from now until the end of school... but starting on APRIL 17.... dun dun dun i'm full fledged doing it.

2. be more fun.
             
              i'm so not fun anymore. haha that is really sad for someone to say about themselves. but it's true. it's time i start stepping out of my lame box and be happy! i need to start acting like a child and soak up the small things. i want to start doing things during the week and the weekends that are fun and unique, even if it is a little cheesy and lame. i'm going to start doing it anyway. i want to enjoy the little things in life and make the best of it.

3. laugh more.

            i so don't find anything funny. it sucks! i need to lighten the freak up and laugh! i will find things more funny. period.

4. be passionate.

          start putting passion in all that i do. people, nature, job, church, etc. be passionate. put all i have in all i do and love. to embrace every moment of things. to love deeply and open my heart to new and
alluring things - even if things seem scary... you'll never know if it was worth it or not if you don't try and put your heart in it... for something one day may change your life. i refer to this quote often when i find myself holding back from so much:
"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived."

5. be confident.

             i suck at accepting a dang compliment. i want to be able to accept it and feel good about accepting it. i don't want to have to worry about what other people think all the time and know that i have the right to be confident. i want to be able to wake up in the morning and feel happy about myself and know that today is going to be a good day. i see those who radiate confidence - it makes me want to just be in their presence all the time. i want to be that person that people can feel that radiation. i want to live.

unique new york

i miss ron! period. living so far away from each other sucks. and the fact that he's out of town makes it worse for whatever reason, haha. but... he comes home tomorrow! yippy! i made a surprise for him for when he gets home... it's super cheesey but whatev - i like it, and so will he.
take a peeksy. :)

yay! i wuv him. :)


i haven't blogged for about a week... much has happened. things with school are looking up - however i still cannot wait to be done. and i still will probably change my major. oh well. :) it will all work out in thee end. i just wanted to share a little somethin' somethin' i heard in class today. - a quote.

"always remember you're unique, just like everyone else."

i laughed out loud when i heard this. :)


and as always. a song. this goes with ron's who shindig.