Your Own Company

Long time no write. Beware, this may be a long post. I have had the urge to write so much lately and just haven't seemed to have the time to do it. It's been over two months since I have said anything, and I feel like much has happend; however, I don't even know where to begin. It's not even so much of the things that have happend but the realizations I have incountered.

As I have said in previous posts my promise to myself this year was to not hold back from the things I wanted to do, and guess what? I haven't. New York, Phoenix, London, Paris, California, North Dakota (oh yeah!), and Vegas. I am hoping to possibly go somewhere else towards the end of the year to top it off. It has been such a great year. Every single day I look back on my life and see how much I have grown and changed.

One of the biggest things I have learned this year is to be able to enjoy my own company. Going to London and Paris alone was one of best experiences of my life. I wouldn't have changed it for the world! Some people still cannot believe I went alone, but it really opened my eyes. Arriving in London was daunting. Being alone was different. I didn't have anyone to talk to or really ask questions. I was in a completely different country - all by myself. I was a little nervous after finding my hotel, but I took a deep breath and headed out not knowing where I was nor where I was going. Long story short, I loved London! I appreciated the history and all that it has to offer. The people were amazing with such sweet spirits! I made some awesome friends. After London I headed over to Paris on a ferry. Once arriving in Paris... I fell in love... with the city. It was truly amazing! Thinking back on it now makes me miss it. I loved everything about the city. Once more the history was unreal. The food was crazy good and the people overall were fabulous. I honestly didn't believe I was there, everything was too perfect. Sitting at a cafe people watching in Paris with the best cappuccino in the world and a crepe..... does it get much better? The whole experience made me step outside of my box and make life long friends. I can't wait to do it again somewhere else!

Being able to enjoy my own company has truly been a blessing. I am content. I am honestly so happy. It almost brings a serene feeling into my life. I've also learned that sometimes you need to eliminate the negativity in your life. I am one pretty postive individual but often times I get drowned out with a negative atmosphere by others. I'm not a fan. Ever heard of the saying, "you are the company you keep." Well, you are. People view you as the people you are around. I do pretty good on keeping the negativity out but I could be better. It's something I am working on. However, I'm blessed with my attitude. I always try and seek out the best in people but I really look up to those who deal with much in their lives and not let it affect them internally - they usually seem the happiest. They typcially see the best in every situation and try to take it as a lesson learned, much like myself. Those type of people help me stay on track and remember that life isn't so bad. Don't play the victim. Everyone has some sort of struggle. Those who rise above and beyond are truly amazing in my eyes. I believe that everyone on this Earth carries a certain spirit. I feel that however a person thinks of himself in his head is how he carries himself in the world.

Put an ocean and a river
Between everybody else,
Between everything, yourself, and home