Start of something new

Being a new year many start out with new resolutions. I started one, more so I'm continuingone I promised myself a little over a month ago, to be spontaneous. This year I want to start doing things randomly, things that aren't planned. I feel those are always the best moments. You can't plan something great because what if something goes wrong? You'll be disappointed. If something is unplanned how can you be disappointed, you never had that goal or objective. I like planning certain things in my life and I feel like those certain things are necessary but I also know the feeling of pure spontaneity. For instance today I was thinking, what if I extended my New York trip? Sure! why not? I like random moments in life because it makes it interesting. You have no idea what's coming. Usually I'm terrified of the unknown and in someways I still am; however, I'm learning to embrace it. I'm learning to live in the moment and no be afraid. What's the point of constantly being concerened about things you cannot change or things you cannot predict? There isn't one. It's as simple as that. Live now. There is so much to be offered to you. Another resolution I've decided to forego is to love more. I'm a really loving passionate person in general but I get to afraid of letting it be known. It's been something I've been working on for sometime now and I think I'm finally starting to get it. I have a big heart and I'm letting it be free. I also want to go with the flow. Often times I am so uptight I don't enjoy certain things. I let things get to me way too much, not this year. I'm going to grow with the flow. Lastly, to not complain about school so much. This might be a bit of a challenge because it's what I'm best at. I'm just going to get this out in the clear right now, THIS SEMESTER IS GOING TO BLOW. Not realizing that I had signed up for a hybrid class (a full semesters work due in 7 weeks - double time! yikes.) and the simple fact that all of my classes are math isn't going to help. It's okay though, right? no more complaning! and Maybe, just perhaps I'll eat a little better and work a little harder, too. Who knows. ;)

On a completely different note... I know I've said this a million times but, I literally do not know what I would do without music. I literally get lost in it. It speaks volumes to me. How can one such thing bring so much light and hope in my life? I do not know. But sometimes I hear songs and I just bawl. Not because I'm sad but because it's so enticing. It's like when I read certain typography's - they speak to me. They fill my heart with something that wasn't there before. They're beautiful. They give me something to hold on to, just as music does. It's a escape. This song is an escape. It's deep. It's beauty. It's love.

Don't allow your heart

To accept a prison

'Cos you took my heart

And you gave it vision

'Cos every feeling that you've lost

Is waking up inside you

And every dream you've cast away

Is coming back to find you

When you find your love

Don't let it go to sleep

When you find your love

Let it go, let it go deep

'Cos when you've found your love

Then you've found your belief

'Cos when you've found your love

Hey babe you've found, you've found me