simplicity

What is the definition of simple?

sim·ple

–adjective

1. easy to understand, deal with, use, etc.: a simple matter; simple tools.

2. not elaborate or artificial; plain: a simple style.

3. not ornate or luxurious; unadorned: a simple gown.

That's the one thing I want to start enduring the most. The simple things in life.

I ultimately want a simple, non hectic life. Sure... at some point in every persons life it becomes a complete and utter mess; but the over all beauty of my life is to live simply. To not engage in things that don't matter, to be accepting of the small things. To fully love what I have and become appreciative of it.

I don't want to live a hectic working day and thrive off of money and the busyness. I want to live in the moment doing something I enjoy the most. I want to take my everyday and do something. Something great - something worth living. Not sit in front of the televison in my pajama's wasting the day.

I don't want to run, I want to stroll.

I want to take it one day at a time.

I want to enjoy all that is simple.

In dwelling, live close to the ground. In thinking, keep to the simple. In conflict, be fair and generous. In governing, don't try to control. In work, do what you enjoy. In family life, be completely present.

day uno

6:00 wake up call. Headed to my FIRST personal training sesh this morning. and..... oh. my. gosh. I thought I was in decent shape... like I could lift anything... well... turns out I was WRONG. Plus... my form. AWFUL. haha All I can do is laugh at myself. Because clearly I had no idea how to preform any of the exersices before doing this (which I thought I did)... but I'm about to learn. I can already feel it in my arms and legs. wooooooo. It's going to be good.

I love my trainer too, Whitney. She is exactly what I need. I honestly am so excited to start this journey and do something I know I can achieve. It is going to take a lot of will, determination, and hardwork... and I am so ready. I just need the love and support of those around me to help me stay on track and not tempt me with delish food... or tell me... "it's okay if you skip the gym just ONE day." well... that one day turns into TWO days... THREE days... and so forth. Or to tell me.. "one bite isn't going to hurt." oh it's going to hurt alright! I'm not paying to just throw my money away. haha I'm paying to learn and to get me to understand what I need to do and how I need to do it, and to get the results I am looking for. :)

I was told a few days ago that I need to start drinking 1 to 1 1/2 gallons of water PER DAY! okay, those who know me know I drink a lot of water... and that's ALL I drink. I don't drink soda or juice.. nothing of that sort... but when I started drinking that 1-1 1/2 gallon range... holy hanna. THAT'S A TON. I literally have to pee every 5 seconds... and when I do I obviously wash my hands after.. well after going to the bathroom several times an hour... and washing my hands that much, my hands are starting to get super dry. To me... DRY SKIN IS THEE WORST FEELING. ugh. but I feel good. :) so I guess that's worth it, right?

Anywho... I'll be posting my progress and such throughout the coming weeks and try to be as positive as I can. This is going to be such a great experience... So happy!

Progress

yeah... one last hoorah.

I really need to start getting my priorities in line. I have been too much of a push over, and it's not okay. I've totally been slacking on writing my papers for my research class... that I told myself I would get done at the END of APRIL. Where are we now? Oh yeah the MIDDLE/END of JUNE... and I still haven't done them.

Also... eating/working out... yeah I've failed there too. I've been working out except the last three weeks now I've slacked. SO! No more slacking. Giving myself a good 12 weeks of perfection. I got me a personal trainer. yep! and honestly... I am SO EXCITED! I'll probably be posting a lot on how it's going... just to give me a little extra motivation aside from what the trainer will give me. and in all honesty... I'm really excited to learn about all of it. Partly the reason is because I've been really thinking about majoring in human performance... and I think this would be a good start. Speaking of majoring... That's another thing on my list... go talk to my school advisor and tell her how much I screwed up the last 3 years of school... and start ALL OVER on a BRAND NEW MAJOR! eff. I feel like I'm going to be a super senior. haha. I'm tired of school. so so tired of it.

anyway... here's to Sunday, June 19 to my last hoorah. My last day of being a push over. My last day of saying, "oh I'll do it." Now or ever, baby.

It's about time I start accomplishing things for myself.

A challenge will be so good for myself.

Something to prove.

Something to be proud of.

Something to make me feel whole.

Something to give me just what I need.

Pulling your confidence through
Some courage is well overdue
I believe solely in all your promise
Why waste a second in doubt
You could be helping you out
Keeping your head in the clear

feelin' hot hot hot!

man. i am one tired girl. i've been so sick and i am finally getting over it. thank goodness! while being sick i went to to phoenix, arizona for a little vacation. a much needed vacation. i loved and soaked up every minute of it, literally - i soaked up the sun. we drove down which was awful and with being sick, i was sure to complain. however, i flew home which i was grateful for but! i did have to get up at 4 a.m. this morning to catch my flight in order to make it to work this morning. anywho. arizona was so chill and HOT it felt amazing. i love that kind of heat. it feels like you're getting out of an oven... 111 degrees never felt so good. i loved it because i didn't have to do anything if i didn't want to.... say what???? that NEVER happens to me. i laid out by the pool, went to dinner, took walks, went to ruins, shopped... easy cheeseeey. :) and the BEST part of the entire trip.... i didn't have to be ready, that's right NO make up, how refreshing.

yep... no make up. with my nice tan line.

ride

okay... it's june. hopefully a much better month. i need it. i'm begging for it.

so many unexpected things have happend and i am so confused as to how to even go about mending them. however, with as crazy as this last month has been... it's helped me in so many ways. it's helped me to realize the kind of person i truly want to be. i've realized it's good to be nice, but it's never good to be TOO nice. who knew?! i've also realized that it's time to do things for me, because the moment i start putting myself first, i eliminate drama by half. this probably is going to be one of the hardest things to continue though. i never put myself first. i never think about what's best for me. i'm constantly putting everyone else before me and listening to what everyone else thinks is the best for me. this is not to say that i'm going to stop caring about everyone, because that is not the case at all, it's just to say that it's time to stick up for myself. i'm still learning, but i'm so done listening to what everyone else has to say, and how everyone else's needs and thoughts matter more than mine. i'm completely entitled to my own opinion and feelings and no one can say otherwise.

i'm going to start taking the time on doing things that i enjoy doing, exploring my needs, wants and interests. and tone down on the TOO niceness... it's given me nothing but bad news. i'm going to start acting like i am just as important as anyone else, and i deserve to be treated with nothing but respect. i'm going to stop caring about what everyone thinks and be my own person. because.... everything i want is just right outside my comfort zone.

i've been on a cary brother's kick lately...